Each smile makes a day better

Tons of people banging up my phone and talking too me about my problems.They say they would not understand what i am facing but what did the bible say? Jesus said that if you are going too take up my cross you must deny yourself. Its more than just suffering. Each prayer makes you stronger thats how i felt. Lucky i still got my funny indian friends cheering me up by making idiotic jokes with each other. God provides a way when theres no way. Yeah i admit my life too me is like shit now,but whatever i do...still i must overcome it. A soldier can fight in a physical war perfectly but mentally...is much more different...it plays games in your mind...Just like the way i love her. If i dont give up she might think i'm annoying. If i wait i wont know what happens in the future? I choose?? Waiting....just be myself will be better. Yes...I love her more than Football...happy now?SHAN? Hope he hears my cries and pain inside my heart. My soul cry out for you my LORD. Each suffering and pain...only you could understand. I will serve you my LORD. Help me too overcome this problems in my life.

Troubles and Problems.

I never understand why my parents ACT good in front of people but the back...scold me,curse me and look down on me...Everysingle thing i do like dance and cheerleading for church,they dint praise me but look down on me,in football they said i am useless...other people can sure beat you...basketball competition...they will say you sure lose...exams...your pathetic..

They destroy my hopes and dreams. They are the ones who made me the boy i am today. They will never understand me. My father is a CHRISTIAN,and what? He curses,scold me,even said before i am a fucking useless son. You know how that felt? I act as though i feel nothing..in my heart is full of hatred. My mother...will use cruel ways too torture me...BRAIN WASH MY FATHER not LETTING ME TO GO TOO YOUTH! I tried too hold my patients. But in my heart...I wanted too KILL HER i curse her...but i did not realize that my suffers are just so small...Outside people are waiting for death...in the hospital or civil wars..why my parents never understand me?

Mother judge church people so rich and take money from offerings...father said i am a useless christian...But look at themself...I rather not exist in this world than....YES MY SCHOOL EXAMS RESULTS ARE SHITS. I did fail! I tried but i really suck in History..what can i do about it??

My dad says that his gonna met my teacher and talk too her about my school works...just because i dint pass up my 4 books...they want too embarrass me in front of my friends...I dont fucking EMO about it but my heart is full of hatred...what can i do? How can you not be angry about it?

The girl i love and care soo much had a boyfriend now,everyday is like a prison in my life,AND WHAT? I act so normal...I want my brothers and sisters in christ too see me happy. Every smile and laughter can change a person day. I want too be there with them. I really hope GOD is watching and help me now. But God has no replies, He dont suddenly appear...why? No one could understand this world...this life...now i understand how some teenagers kill themself because people dont understand them.

Everyday people is dying and waiting for death...should i complain? No one understand them or me...everyone understands about their own problems. This is the fact of life.

17.APRIL.2010.

17.April.2010

Joey Chan's Birthday.

His the kind of person that you can really trust.His a genius in studies.His one of the smartest people in Petra Youth.It was his 21st Birthday.

John Lian bought a huge cake for Joey cost about RM 400+(I was stunned)

But Joey really help a lot for the group. His a silent worker. He did the most for the group. Really salute him!The first time i met him he was so silent,but now...change. This is the most happy part. As brotherhoods outings,every laughing and smile makes a person better =)

Well bro~Joey~You one heck of a buddy! Respect you the most! Not just because your smart but you can bare with one and another even through hard times! Your the man!

PC Fair Comments~and +++

Today when to KLCC alone..reach there alone i meant..travel alone..haih~i was waiting for ka fei 1hour like that..in that one hour time~I did~

-Play PS3 with a england tourist. I won 4-2 ( BARCELONA FC (me) vs Manchester City (tourist) )
-Visited Nike and Adidas store..well you know me~xD
-kiss and touch the mercurial superfly II
-look at some football shorts

After that..ka fei meet up with me!We went too PC Fair together with his college mates.My comments in PC FAIR

The Goods
-Total many hot chicks making eye contact with you to sell their products...( i dint fall for it!)
-Ka Fei keep want too see hot chicks while i'm searching for my CPU stuff
-Played some games there~L4D 2 and MW2

The Bads
-Not much of a choice..disappointed indeed...
-Less stores selling CPU items such as GC,PSU....
-Stupid Streamyx and P1MAX staff keep fighting for customers..blocking the whole lane...

Well its a waste for me...but at least i get too kiss and touch the superfly II~

Eat-Burger King-BBQ Chessburger Set~ WOOF!!

Then reach back home,dinnner,GO YAM CHA with Kafei,Richard and Ritchie~
Went too OLD TOWN~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHERS RITCHIE AND JOEY !!!

Just another interesting DAY~

In School
-Photography Sessions-Basketball Club,Sports House Club and Moral Club
-Hanging around in school,dint study 60%...lol...
-Eat shitty foods like usual...

After School
-THIS IS IT-SUSHI KING TIME
-GO WITH? Ka Fei and Richard my close brothers-
-Why go? Promotion each plate 2bucks oni...
-I eat 14 plates only...HAHAHAHA-
Ended up total bill is rm 60+ Including richard and ka fei

After Sushi King
-Bump into Ernest!!!
-I bought ice cream choco top from mcD
-Go too sports shop lots and see FOOTBALL STUFF!!!
-Touching THE MERCURIAL VAPOR is like Touching the hottest Girl in the world-awww~

ENDED UP AT HOME
-Dint eat dinner extreme full
-Tired worn out
-Now what else? GO TO SLEEP LA~! XD

NIGHTZ~

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

For all gamers! Bang for the buck GC!

Ok~Here's the big deal. All budget gamers!!

If your a ATI Fan Boy..RM 290-320. Non other GC is that cheap and performs amazing like the ATI HD 4770.

Specs
DirectX®10.1
512MB, GDDR5
640 Stream Processors
ATI Stream Technology
ATI CrossFire X ( Two GC in one MOBO if you have,increase double pump power )

If your a Nvidia Fan boy..RM 340-360. It will be Nvidia GTS 250 Green Edition

Specs
DirectX 10.1
512MB,GDDR3
128 Stream Processors
745 MHZ
SLI Capable ( Two GC in one MOBO if you have,increase double pump power )
Phyx of course...

Conclusion is simple. Nvidia has Phyx Graphic Quality while ATI doesnt BUT! HD 4770 Performs quite well.Both cards are great.Capable too play HD GAMES like Crysis,Modern Warfare,Call of Jurez,WOW and blablabla~~~

If your on a tight budget. This is the 2 cards that you can go for. Go too lowyat too check the prices. Nothing is better on a RM 350 RANGE. Unless you got money RM 500 ABOVE..GET THE HD 5750 THEN..LOL! Anyway just some random info~Peace out! Remember..Get either ASUS,HIS OR SAPPHIRE BRAND. More better! Check Warranty!

April Comes.

Results were average..below average...not that good..life has been very tired and stress...dont get much sleep...boring in school...well that's how student's feel...
Anyway easter had just pass,it was awesome
-Musical Drama was awesome-
-Games on that day was fun-
-Everyone seems too have a good time-
-Meet a cute and funny girl-WooF! LOL ==
Well that's all i think....xD

Not much going on...back too our boring life...seems like everyday i am waiting for Saturday and Sunday only..haih...Thats all for updates.

-Oh Baby..PC fair is coming + Gaming Comp-Woots!