I never understand why my parents ACT good in front of people but the back...scold me,curse me and look down on me...Everysingle thing i do like dance and cheerleading for church,they dint praise me but look down on me,in football they said i am useless...other people can sure beat you...basketball competition...they will say you sure lose...exams...your pathetic..
They destroy my hopes and dreams. They are the ones who made me the boy i am today. They will never understand me. My father is a CHRISTIAN,and what? He curses,scold me,even said before i am a fucking useless son. You know how that felt? I act as though i feel nothing..in my heart is full of hatred. My mother...will use cruel ways too torture me...BRAIN WASH MY FATHER not LETTING ME TO GO TOO YOUTH! I tried too hold my patients. But in my heart...I wanted too KILL HER i curse her...but i did not realize that my suffers are just so small...Outside people are waiting for death...in the hospital or civil wars..why my parents never understand me?
Mother judge church people so rich and take money from offerings...father said i am a useless christian...But look at themself...I rather not exist in this world than....YES MY SCHOOL EXAMS RESULTS ARE SHITS. I did fail! I tried but i really suck in History..what can i do about it??
My dad says that his gonna met my teacher and talk too her about my school works...just because i dint pass up my 4 books...they want too embarrass me in front of my friends...I dont fucking EMO about it but my heart is full of hatred...what can i do? How can you not be angry about it?
The girl i love and care soo much had a boyfriend now,everyday is like a prison in my life,AND WHAT? I act so normal...I want my brothers and sisters in christ too see me happy. Every smile and laughter can change a person day. I want too be there with them. I really hope GOD is watching and help me now. But God has no replies, He dont suddenly appear...why? No one could understand this world...this life...now i understand how some teenagers kill themself because people dont understand them.
Everyday people is dying and waiting for death...should i complain? No one understand them or me...everyone understands about their own problems. This is the fact of life.
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Hey.. i just want to tell you.. No matter what happends.. our parents do love us, in this world no single parent will not love their children,, they just dont know how to express it..
maybe sometimes, they dont know how to be a good parents too.. not everyone is perfect.. but they are trying.. give them a chance.. and yourself too.. sometimes, we are blinded by the things they have done for us, but instead keep on thinking about what they have not done for us.. we never want enough.. maybe all they want is a little companionship.. try to understand them.. and talk to them in a nice way.. tell them u just want their support..ask them why couldnt they support you and why they keep criticize you..
Really think about it, maybe you are angry, and have overemphasize things, or maybe beacuse they think that you should be studying instead of doing all those, and that is why you are angry.
the point is..
Trust me, no one parents would criticize their son like this, and not want them to do good. yours is not any different.
Please take some time to cool down and think about them, and everything you have had until today. Not just think what you want and what people couldnt give you..
we cannot blame our parents, maybe because when they were young, their parents treated them the same way.. that is why we as children needs to try and understand them aswell.. we cant just be kids forever..
so just chill out yea =) everything will be alright..
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